DANNNNYYYYY!!!

1) Warwick Avenue by Duffy
2) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h0FX_ROcNV4
3) I'm grateful for my super stellar roommate!!

Once again, it has been forever since I have been on here but I have had such an interesting year so far and i feel like I need to tell all the 2 people who read this about it :)

First off, I moved!! I found an apartment with my very awesome friend, Katie! And for those who don't know her, I'll give a bit of background. Katie and I worked together at TR and became good friends being the sounding boards for awful people's stupid complaints. Her and I are very similar personality-wise and have been through similar experiences. It has been so much fun having her around to listen to me whine about boys and various other things. 

Also, last month I got to go visit with Nicole, Lora and Jay! It had been years since I spent time with the girls and I really needed the ability to just relax and have fun. I also got to spend time with Hyrum and Ezra, Nicole and Jay's kids. We went to the zoo and had a bunch of movie nights and even got to visit their tornado shelter :)

One thing I love about my friends is that we haven't seen each other in years but it's like no time has passed. I am so lucky to have people in my life who love me for who I am and in spite of the decisions I make in my life.

I was really excited to see everyone but especially Ezra. He is 8 months old and has had a pretty rough start for such a happy little man and this was the first time meeting him. He is so sweet. We were walking around the zoo and I just never wanted to put him down. I just felt like the more I held him, the more happiness I could absorb from him. We stepped out into the sun and every time he would throw his head back so the sun was on his face and he would just laugh. Something so simple just made his day and made him so happy. He is a wonderful little guy!

As for the future, I have one thing to do before I can start school in the fall and then I will probably just start with a class or two and then build from there! I am also planning a trip to London next year possibly with a friend. I am really looking forward to my first real international trip!! YAY!! Have an awesome 6 months cause, let's be honest, that seems to be how often I have been writing. CHEERIO!!

Sometimes armadillos plot against humanity...

1) Girl in the Moon by Everly
2)"Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength."
3) I'm grateful for music. In many ways, music touches deeper and has the ability to soothe more completely than anything else.

Okay so I know it's been a very long time so let me do a quick update on my life and goings on. I'm still nannying for a wonderful family who are expecting twin boys this spring!! It is definitely going to be a learning experience but I am very grateful that I started out working with multiple little ones at a time. It makes me feel a little more confident about my abilities. I also just finished another Christmas season working at Things Remembered. It was very tiring but I guess it comes with the season.

Right now though, I feel like I'm at a loss for words...I put together a couple ideas but deleted them both and I realized that everything I want to say, I have been scared to say for a very long time. If there is one thing I have learned from this past year, it's patience. Patience with every aspect in life. But mostly patience with myself and my shortcomings. There are changes in my life that I am trying to make, but I get so caught up in changing everything that I get overwhelmed and eventually discouraged. I love that part of the Serenity Prayer that says "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference." Change is a tricky thing when it comes to personal renovation. Anyone can make a list of everything they hate about themselves but if you took that list and crossed off the things you cant change and just let those go, how many would be left? And is it harder to change the things you can or accept the things you can't?

With 2013 just beginning, I took an opportunity to take inventory of the past year. Just trying to figure out the good and the bad and things I would change. There are many things I've learned from the past year but by far the biggest is that it takes more strength to accept situations that you can't change. There were so many times that I wanted so bad to change what I was going through or what someone else was going through and it took loosing a very important family member to remind me that even the worst case scenario has a lesson to be learned or a certain amount of strength to gain. Someday we may know the whys and why nots but for now, we need to get as much out of every minute as possible. I know when I look at my life and all of the different things I am dealing with and moving through, it's so easy to get caught up in the things I don't like when what I really need to do is be grateful for them. It's through these things that cause pain, I am able to be a stronger person.

So looking into the next year, I hope to be able to accept my shortcomings with patience and understanding, but also make some changes and achieve some goals. I hope all of you are having a wonderful beginning to the new year and i will try to write again before 2014 :)

*Make good choices and to hell with the rest of 'em*